One year into this unknown journey I find myself in - with Nate and the kids in tow. Really we have no idea what is in store for us, since our original expectations and excitements were never met.
I miss Germany daily. My heartaches for the normalcy we found there.
One year ago.
Oh happy happy. Everything is perfect. I mean seriously what can go wrong. Turns out a lot.
We were so ignorant and really kind of stupid to think that our plan would unfold completely flawless before our eyes - in a snap - we would have it together and start this new life.
Yeah right, didn't happen.
Just lots of heartaches and frustrations.
One year later.
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| Excuse the gross door behind us, it has not yet met it's new layer for paint. |
Oh and I don't want to forget the cat. Meet Millie. She tends to make everything better - for everyone in our house. She is the best!
A lot of things has happened over the past year, and most of it never made it to the blog - I ask myself will it benefit anyone or fuel the drama - and ninety-eight percent of the time it would have fueled the drama, (even if I was just expressing my emotions) and what would be the point?
I have struggled with so many things, but I think the hardest thing has been the lack of compassion for adjustment. We aren't the standard size of things - and sometimes (well most of the time) that doesn't sit well with people. This is the first time in my eight years surrounded by Americans, that I have found there to be a huge cultural difference, and sadly I am outnumbered. And then also taking into consideration there is only a handful that understands and have lived in the military culture - so double shock.
I find myself in this place - this love hate relationship with my surroundings. The love part - I have never seen Nate so happy to go to work, and that fuels happiness and contentment in the whole house - but the other part - is so upset with me because I should have know better - I should have know that part of our exceptions and excitement have been destroyed a long time ago - why would this move make it better and or different?
I am incredibly thankful for a handful of people that has made it worth while - who have invested in us, and who truly love us - even when we are moving at snail pace. Thank you - you have kept us grounded, accountable (to be better people) - you have encouraged us to keep going - and for that alone, I am so grateful. I am blessed to call you our friends.
We are working on adjusting - slowly but surely - in two weeks my parents will be here - and I have never been so excited for familiarity - and a jump start hug - to get over it and move on.
For now - we made it one year - 365 days. We are alive and breathing, we have each other, we are still together - and that is all that matters.
We are growing.
Happy Saturday!
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