Floating

Floating.  That is what I feel like, I feel like we are still in this floating mode - still waiting, waiting, with some more waiting.  All I can say is that waiting is hard, some days it comes a little easier and more naturally then other days.  But it is still so dang hard.  This floating stage is so annoying at times - because there is no time frame, there is no known end, and a new beginning.  There is simply floating in the now.  It is so challenging to stay on top of it, to stay positive and content.  We are working on it.

We are at least settled into the our new routine without Nate, he is loving his new job, and Ian thinks he is the coolest, just because he rode the train for two days in a row, and Nate even steered it.  The kids and I have loved all the pictures and little videos that he send us.

It has been a while since I have written anything - so an update is definitely due.

Sister received her first ever hair cut.  Yes, I do realize that she had almost no hair to begin with, but the fly-aways have been trimmed, and now we are waiting for glorious growth to appear.  Maybe she will be lucky and have enough hair to wear a little hair clip by her third birthday.




























Experimental homeschooling, have been a success so far.  Every morning after breakfast we gather around the dining room table to learn.  For all the skeptics out there - my kids are still young so it is more like glorified craft time, and story time.  We do lots of crafts, we coloring, we paint, we laugh, and we read a lot of books.  Some mornings are more lazy, so we retreat to the living room, right to the spot were the morning sun peeks through, I sip on my cup of tea, and encourage the kids to build awesome structures with blocks, repeating the names of shapes and colors, admiring their skills.  I love and cherish these mornings.




























I have been so unmotivated to take pictures lately, it's like the passion just kind of disappeared, and I I don't have the inspiration to just do it.  It has been so bothersome to me, but even with that I "just don't care" - what a stupid funk.

My grandmother is probably so annoyed with me, since it takes her forever to starts up her computer every morning just to see pictures, and sadly there has been none - sorry ouma!! I love you!!

Well today was different - the kids and I got dressed and ready and decided to spend the morning at the park and duck pond.  It was such a beautiful, sunny, and clear morning.  I love fall.  As we went about out business, feeding ducks, scowling the domineering geese, and laughing at the funny looking ducks, something was stirred inside of me and rekindled.  Instead of leaving after feeding the ducks, we decided to stay, and walk along the duck pond, and see what we would find.

Well Ian found an awesome spot right against the trunk of big tree, in between the surfacing roots.  We spend the rest of morning right in this spot, watching the ducks, talking to the resident squirrel, drawing with sticks in the dirt, and talking.






Well hello Mr Squirrel - you are the coolest.




























The kids just talked and talked, and shared their sweet little hearts, and it made me happy, and it also made me grateful that they have been so resilient.  They have been so brave, and strong in this whole set up, and they are still hanging in there,  I am so proud.  We have hard days, where they cry because they want their own stuff, and they miss their toys (for Ian it is all his Thomas tracks, trains, and gadgets,) but it will make the reunion so much sweeter.  I am thankful that I  get to stay with them, that I get to rock them when they cry, when they uncertain, or just overwhelmed.  I needed this morning with them.































I am hoping to really do better this time around, to "get it together" and have more little impromptu adventures with the kids.

We will continue to wait patiently for our prefect little house, and remain grateful for the roof that is over our heads (thanks to Nate's parents) and we know soon we will have our own little place - perfect for us. I am so annoyed with the overpriced houses here - I want to scream.  For the ones wondering - that is why we have not budged yet.

I can't wait to share the news that we have a house - so stay tuned.



























Happy Thursday!

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