I think I never stick to it, because finding time is hard, and then the intimidation of sticking with something stresses me out sometimes. I also don't really care much about grammatical errors, and don't feel like dealing with the criticism that goes with it. So a disclaimer, if you are uptight about grammar, this is most definitely not the place for you!
Talking about criticism, I am so over it, our little life here in the Cook casa, might not be perfect, but to me it is the little imperfections that makes it perfect. Sure we have lots and lots and lots of meltdowns, and it drives me up the walls, but that is part of having little people.
I am so tired of the stigma that stay at home moms have to have it all together, sure sometimes we have it together, but for the most part we strive in the not having it together days as well. I am tired of other mama's judging each other over every little thing, "your house is clean, you must not spend time with your kids," "you cook everything from scratch, so that means your kids watch to much TV," and so the list goes on and on. It is so hard to keep your head above the water, when these statements hits you right in the face.
I have decided screw it, I do the best I can for my family, and what works for us might not work for you, but who cares, that is the beauty of difference, and thinking for yourself.
Some days we have glorious days were everything happens right as planned, and the kids behave beautifully, and the day just seem so perfect, and I don't yell once [yes, I am working on not yelling at all], and then we have the days, that I just want to lock myself in the laundry room, and turn on the dryer while hiding next to it, so it will blur out all the fussing and whining, and I have decided that, that is ok as well. We take each day, one step at a time, and we try our best to strive in our circumstances.
We have lots of fun the last few days, soaking up the sun in Germany, before we are subject to the dark and dreary winter again.
Kids love being at the fire station. We had so much fun, it was a chillier day but the sun was shining so we played outside for what seemed like hours. We tried to lure the stray pet cat closer, to no avail, I am kind of relieve as it looked kind of gross. Ian jumped from rock to rock, he picked flowers, and Hayleigh was little miss destructor and follower. Watching my kids explore, discover, and grow is one of the most mind blowing experiences of my life. I love every minute of it.
Yesterday we had one of those not all together days, that resulted in lots of tears, whines, and let's face it trouble. Ian for the life of him could not shake his little attitude, and threw fits over everything, it took my everything to keep it together and not lose my mind completely. I am proud to say I did it, I didn't yell once, and for those who know me, know it is a big achievement. We remedied the crappy day, and set out on our local neighborhood adventure, the bakery was of course on the to stop list. It is amazing what some sun kisses on the face can do for your soul.
I am in love with the new season of my life. I love spending more time with the Lord, not being so obsessed with having plan for everything, and just enjoying the little moments with my kids. I am cherishing everything, savoring every moment before the grow up.
Our veggie garden is still thriving, not bad for a first try. Next year I would do somethings differently, but we got a pretty good harvest this year, and some of the plants are still producing.
Off to enjoy the beautiful sunshine.
Happy Wednesday!
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